I am currently on day 21 of my journey, and unfortunately, I find myself experiencing a wave of anxiety once again. Despite the progress I have made with the audio program, I can't help but feel discouraged by the fact that the four dates I went on recently didn't lead to anything meaningful. It's a harsh reality that clashes with the pure contentment I had achieved thus far.
To counteract these negative emotions, I've decided to follow Lesley's advice from the accompanying notebook and create a vision board for my soulmate. The process of envisioning my ideal partner and repeating Lesley's words about not losing someone who isn't meant for me has been tremendously helpful.
Additionally, I've come to realize that this audio program may not bring my soulmate into my life until I become a soulmate to myself first - a notion deeply ingrained within the program itself.
Watching the Golden Bachelor TV show has been a trigger for me, particularly due to the age of the participants. Finding love becomes increasingly challenging as we mature, and this fact has been difficult to accept. However, I've started to remind myself that many women who are married or in partnerships are not with their soulmates. Instead, they settle for a relationship that feels more like companionship or convenience, lacking the passionate connection I desire. While there are undoubtedly happy and fulfilled couples out there, statistics reinforce my belief.
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In light of this, I've come to appreciate the freedom I currently possess. I have the opportunity to search for my soulmate without the financial dependence or responsibilities that often accompany marriage and children. This realization brings a sense of empowerment and reassurance. I must remain steadfast during these challenging times, navigating the uncertainties of dating and the periods when things don't feel quite right.
It has become easier to approach each date without lofty expectations, thanks to the soulmate magnet recording. However, it has also ignited a newfound desire for love and awakened dormant emotions, making it difficult to maintain the resigned mindset I once had. Resignation felt safe and predictable, providing a certain level of happiness in the solace of my own company, unburdened by the need for love. Now, I must find a way to balance my emotions and align them with the results I desire. It's a delicate equilibrium to achieve, but one that will ultimately lead me closer to finding the passionate and purposeful love I seek.